As the title of my blog says it’s inevitable that change will come. Last week we had some major change here at our home and it is taking me some time to process and work through. Change is very difficult for me. Harder really than I thought it would be.
Our middle daughter moved out. It wasn’t a “good” move as it could have been if she would have talked to us and let us help her. But apparently both our girls don’t really want or need our help right now. They are “hell bent” on making it on their own no matter what. I guess I should admire that but the way that they lashed out at us and made us feel like the worst parents on the planet has left me feeling very insecure with myself as a person and lack the confidence to blog, keep our home, be a mother to our son, or lead in general.
We have not heard from either girl in a week. The middle daughter had her phone number changed and we do not have it. The only thing we do know for sure is where she is currently sleeping and working. I think that is probably the hardest part; not knowing. Is she keeping up with her studies; is she going to finish school?
So for now, I will try to blog when I can. I will try to visit you often. I am staying really busy around the house so that I don’t think too much about them. That’s the way I have always been when there is stress of this nature. Clean…clean…clean! 🙂
Please keep us in your prayers. I know that it will work out if we just let them go to do their thing. It’s hard enough having one prodigal child but two is heart breaking to say the least. We are focusing on helping our son be successful in his military aspirations. We plan on taking him to Mexico at Christmas time. Not only to show him that he matters but to let the girls have time to find out what it is like to not have family at a very special time of year. I know that may sound mean but we aren’t going to just be here to buy them gifts for the holidays and then be thrown to the wayside again.
Thank you all for listening to my rant and I hope you will stick around during my sporadic posting!!